Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Breaking Point

Lately I have felt like I'm at my breaking point.

I am so sick of being in pain everyday. My leg kills. I wake up in so much pain I can't sleep and I have shooting pains down my leg when I stand up. When I first hurt my back I saw improvement with every appointment, I'm not seeing that anymore. They said I was about 80% better but it seems like my leg is only getting worse. The first few days following my appointment I am in so much pain I just cry. I am so thankful for the few weeks I was pain free and I know I can get to that point again but it's not happening soon enough. I am hoping for answers at my appointment tonight. The thing that upsets me the most is that my insurance won't cover any therapy so every penny comes from my pocket and it's so expensive.

Then I've been dealing with a UTI for over a week. I don't know why the antibiotics I was given are not working but it looks like I will be going back to the Doctor again.

And my upper permanent retainer came off. They wanted to charge me $220 for a new one. Guess the $5000 I gave them already wasn't enough. I opted to wear my removable retainer every night instead of paying that much money and I just hope that works and my teeth don't shift.

My girls have been fighting like crazy and I am so sick of Haylee's loud mouth constantly yelling and whining. And Natalee has been an absolute terror and has been so destructive. Ripping books, dumping stuff all over the floor and just being a brat. Discipline isn't working and I just want to pull my hair out.

And if that wasn't bad enough, I'm 5 days late. After turning to Google it looks like I'm not the only one who has been late after taking Cipro (UTI antibiotic) so I am praying that is the reason.


Update- I went to the Chiropractor and explained my frustration. They did another set of xrays which confirmed 2 things. 1- I have lower back scoliosis which my spine isn't just curved, it's also rotated. At my age there really isn't anything to do to fix that but she said it will cause problems later on. And 2- there is no "hole" between my lowest vertebrae so that nerve is being pinched and causing all the pain. Just what I thought, stupid sciatic nerve. So a new treatment was started in addition to adjustments, I did my normal therapy and she added 2 new stretches to the 3 I already do at home. I am feeling a lot better now that she knows how I feel and we know exactly what is wrong.

I also took a pregnancy test which was negative. Hallelujah!!!! So I have a feeling it is my antibiotic. Talk about freakin heart attack. I so need a drink tonight!!!